After dating for two days and being engaged for five months, Jesse and I got married May 11, 2013. We spent the summer being married, taking odd jobs, serving our church community, preparing for Haiti and planning our fundraising trip. Oh! And did I mention we were pregnant a month and a half into marriage? Yes… yes we were.
After we got rid of most of our belongings, we set off on a month-long road trip asking family, friends and church connections if they would invest into the life we wanted to establish in Haiti. There were many brave souls who generously committed to give monthly or gave a one-time gift to make it possible.
We landed in Haiti on October 23, 2013, five months married, four months pregnant and having only a slight idea of where we were living and what we were doing. We wouldn’t necessarily suggest this way of going on mission, but also we 100% would if that is what God is asking of you. For us we knew that we knew that we knew that God told us to go. He didn’t necessarily give us all the details, but He set up the clear path. The only thing you can do in that scenario is try it out. We see in part and we know in part (1 Corinthians 13:9) and God is more than delighted in the process of us learning His voice. His goal is always to draw us near, so we lean in to hear His voice and step out in faith by obeying.
We headed up to Gwo Cheval, our new mountain home and spent the first two years unlearning. Yup… we had a WHOLE lot to unlearn when it came to our own cultural bias, church family, the Kingdom of God and what it actually means to love a community. Again, Jesus is delighted in our growth journey and loves breaking down a whole lot of things we think we know in order to give us His perspective (which is ALWAYS way better than ours). We went in thinking that we were going to be heroes and “do so much for these poor people,” but quickly realized that God was asking us to shut our mouths, get to know the community and build relationships.
This community had been praying for years for God to send them help.
This community had been established for decades before Jesse and I were even born.
This community had God-given dreams on their hearts to see happen, but didn’t have the resources.
We needed to come in low and slow… in humility and with a heart to learn. We’re still learning how to do this, but God is so wildly patient and kind with us.
The first two years were filled with learning the language and culture, building and establishing our home, having two babies, building community and hosting some small teams for building projects, church conferences and medical clinics. We had no clear vision other than that we wanted to help take care of the needs around us. It was overwhelming to say the least, but we did our best to hear God’s voice and say “yes” where He was saying “yes.” We didn’t always get it right and made plenty of mistakes, but we learned. Again, God delights in our process.
We came to a head of frustration though… we felt the lack of vision deeply and felt that we were spinning our wheels so to speak and not really establishing anything solid. A saying from the book “Circle Maker” by Mark Batterson stuck out to us.
Pray Hard.
Dream Big.
Think Long.
In our prayers, were we dreaming big with God? Were we thinking about the long-term effect that we were having on our beloved community of Gwo Cheval? Our answers to those questions were ‘not really.’ So we asked God to change that. We didn’t just want to put band aids on the issues we were seeing around us, but we wanted to engage in the hard work of long-term solutions to the poverty on our doorstep. So what was the big dream on God’s heart? What was our part to play?
We felt His answer so deeply – “Focus on the next generation.”